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The Urge

Conflict of Self

Doing… doing… always doing. Never sitting still, feet shoving, legs twitching. Always full of energy, full of thoughts, full of feelings and intentions and memories and everything crashing around in my mind all day and all night and never ending.

Eternal stream of consciousness, never focussed on one thing, always changing, shifting, moving, evolving, resetting, rethinking, unthinking, undoing, redoing and redefining. Discovering, inhaling, remixing and exhaling. Experiencing and suppressing and forgetting and remembering. Analyzing. Overanalyzing. Finding and loving and craving and losing and hating and fearing and just not caring anymore.

Always fighting the urge to create and giving in. Always starting something new and never finishing. Racing the clock in hopes of being done before interest moves on to the next best thing. Constantly failing. Opening up the editor just to write anything for the sake of writing, the sake of creating, the sake of doing something meaningful. For the sake of being heard. Having nothing to say and saying it anyway. Shoving this into your face and not knowing what to make of it. Feeling relieved, now on to the next thing.

Forever restless. The story of my life.


4 Comments

  1. Your mom November 26, 2010 @ 22:33

    Hi Jerry,

    Don’t you ever rest? Let’s talk! Mom


  2. Your mom November 26, 2010 @ 23:08

    Or are you just training your bike to become like Danny’s??


  3. Jerome Dahdah November 27, 2010 @ 13:36

    Hi mom, so awesome of you to stop by. :) I’ll give you a call.


  4. nicky December 13, 2010 @ 22:13

    :D mama is great :D cool pic!



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